Dear friends and family,
Life is pretty good here. I finally am getting into my jobs. Oh yeah I forgot to mention, but I did end up getting both positions. I'm working as an exercise consultant at the U leisure gym just down the road. And it's finally Christmas Eve! Holey Moley. Definitely having trouble believing it right now. Its warm as and theres barely any lights and Christmas songs blaring over the radio system. Hmmm... Weird. I guess I can do this. We do have a tree though. Cam and his mum went on a little hunt down a beaten path in Rotorua and took care of that. haha. Theres a picture of it in my pictures... must say its an interesting one as well. lol. But it does have some mad decorations, thanks to donations from Nicola Blake. :) Other than that I'm looking forward to heading off here to Rotorua and Napier for the holiday and be around the family that I do have here.
Just thought I'd start off with the positive side of things. I have some awful news from your side of the world though. My uncle Courtney suddenly passed away 2 days ago. Its really difficult to cope with. Takes you away from busy life for a awhile. PAUSE. Shocking news. How can this be? How could this happen? He was so young. Just 10 years older than me. Suddenly you feel like you are in the wrong place. Trapped. Trapped on another planet. Unable to hop in a car and speed up to Delaware and mourn with family. Your heart aches and presses hard against your chest as you try to find someone who understands. Some one to hold on to. Luckily the phone line goes through. It only makes you feel more distant though. Its then you realize that you aren't alone. My boyfriend is there to sweep me from work the instant he hears, good friends are sending love from all parts of the world (texts, calls, emails, facebook messages, skype). The love is everywhere. It really helps. I'm sure you can all relate to this type of experience at some point in your life. Its hard. Sporadic tears come and go, but at least there are cushions around. I found a charm that Uncle Courtney gave to me when I was in middle school from Arizona. Its a kokopelli. Its a major icon of the Native American Hoki tribe in America. Primarily the southwest. The kokapelli has been a source of music making and dancing, and spreading joy to those around the world. Just reminds me of my uncle, so I have put it on one of my chains and will wear it around my neck in honor of him. I still believe people who leave us in this world are still here in spirit, guiding us along.
Thats where I'll leave it. Sorry for the down trodden news, but thats how life goes. Its a roller coaster. Up and downs. Constantly fluctuating. Like the ocean. Everyone's trying to swim and stay afloat in this world.
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